This question urges me to look past my basic needs of safety, security, and connection to deeper desires and my core values. What do I value most in life—and at this particular stage of the process I am in. However, my answer to this question continues to come back to one thing and that is experience.

In most circumstances, self improvement is a positive trait that leads to a healthy self awareness and lifestyle habits. Generally, one seeks out self improvement when something in their life is no longer working and they want to develop new skills and habits to change it.

So, we have to be viligant when we encounter resistance so that we 1) don’t sabotage ourselves from growing and evolving, 2) don’t waste our time or energy clinging on to unavailable energy and 3) allow ourselves to be unapologetically honest with what is and is not working for us.

So, two weeks after that text, I was boarding the plane to see him. I had mixed thoughts and feelings at this point…. it was a rush of excitement and fear. I was finally going to see him. I went over all the scenarios in my head and still felt whatever happens, I’m going to get clarity.